February 2012
5 posts
Loss of perception
Caught up in the rapture of the temporary happiness, I failed to find the will to stop myself. I knew what was right and what I was doing was wrong yet the only resistance I did was resisted from resisting. You kept giving and I kept taking. Lost myself in the moments of delirium while I was busy tryna align my expectations along with reality.
Things just aren’t going to fall through. And...
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Lez be frandzz.
Do you know what’s scary? Being completely overwhelmed and consumed by happiness in which you know is only temporary. Yet, you can’t find the will and power in you to pull away.
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January 2012
9 posts
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On imperfection
It’s hard to love somebody through their imperfections. Or rather, it’s just hard to tolerate them and the flaws they have to offer— especially in times of their worst. But I’ve always believed in “love conquers all,” and with that said, your feelings for them should consequently prevail over anything.
They’ll make you mad, make you go absolutely insane...
“I want to finish running this road with you.” Remember when? I suppose I was blinded by the thought of what could have been ahead of us and neglected what lied before us. My mistake of running before learning how to walk caused us to stumble and trip over the tiniest things underfoot and regardless of how much I wanted for us to pick each other up and continue working together —...
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Upon my room renovation, I couldn’t help but notice all the imperfections merged into my four walls. Inches of dust collected amongst the surface and hole after hole with uneven cracks and edgy bumps neighboring.
Yet, the room hadn’t only serve the position of being my very own area to acquire peace and rest, it had been my escape throughout these years of consciousness whenever I...
Ignorance is bliss? Some say it’s utter bullshit while some concur with the statement. As for me, I’m stuck in the middle — 50/50. I’ve come across things I wished I never found out nor witnessed on so many occasions. Things that can make or break your day, a message that can give you the pain of being kicked down a spiraling staircase or discovering something that sends...
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On nights where I don’t immediately drift off to sleep, I’m able to make out the hazy outline of each feather dangling next to me as my eyes adjust to the dark. With intentions of using it as a room decor, this dreamcatcher became a source of comfort. For a little over five months, I cannot recall having a single nightmare. I haven’t had those dreams that used to make me sit up...
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December 2011
11 posts
On friendship
One day, love and friendship met on the road of life. Love asked: What’s your use when I already exist? Friendship smiled and said, “I’m here to make people smile when you make them cry.”
Romance may keep the heart at ease but friends can provide the love and comfort no mate can offer. Reevaluating the definition of ‘friendship’ and the impact it holds for me...
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breathe-hope-iin-me:
And suddenly, I am consumed by an overwhelming anger. Nothing sparked this, but it feels like my insides are on fire, and I know my fists just want to close and squeeze at nothing.
I think I’m just angry at everything. How I have changed, how a lot of people have left my life now, many things.
I don’t know why I’m mad though, I should be sad.
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It’s extremely irritating to have somebody constantly running their mouths about your business when it shouldn’t be of their concerns in the first place. Remaining quiet does not mean I’m oblivious but rather finding it unworthy of my time to set things straight. There’s a point when enough is really enough, though. I’m not going to hesitate to put anybody in place...
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Last time.
Goodbyes just doesn’t get easier. I went into college with no intentions of making friends, simply because I didn’t want to suffer from this slight nostalgia I feel in my chest right now. I didn’t want to grow attached. I was warned that Professors don’t give a shit about us individually but they all proved me wrong. I met some amazing people and they never ceased to have...
This too, shall past.
My mind has been in a collision of doubt and concerns.. and I just feel so exhausted. Have you ever had that feeling where you had so much to say, so much you want to ventilate and reveal to empty out the burdens of your heavy heart that’s been anchoring you down— only to find silence slipping out of your lips when you proceed to speak?
Feeling inclined to make my inner thoughts...
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"Love makes time pass and time makes love pass"
Life constantly offers chances that most people either overlook or don’t care to give a second look. Some plunge at every chance they get and a few grasps the wrong ones at the wrong time. Falling with an increased expectancy of being caught mostly results in disappoint. But isn’t it only fair for everybody to go through a process of trial-and-error until they find the perfect one that...
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I said I’d never let you slip away. Yet, I lost you and I’m steady tryna get you coming back my way. Your presence is never around when I’m in desperate need of you. So cruel, no feelings of compunction. Dippin’ in and out of my life when I need you in order to function. I know I did you wrong— succumbed to a temptation and the next is only harder to resist. But shit,...
November 2011
11 posts
I’m afraid to turn off the lights not because of what’s in it. I’m afraid of the loneliness and the abyss of never-ending darkness that seems to consume everything around me. Devoured not by monsters and demons but by paranoia. Overflowing fluctuation of contemplations and sighs of frustration from the attempts to let sleep take over, only to realize the hours that has gone by...
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The departure of Fall and gradual arrival of Winter. Barren and cold, that’s how I feel. You’ve raised me well and Drake knows best because I think I like the person that I’m becoming. From the day that I took my very first breath, you and Her have blessed me with a loving family, ultimately everything I need to maintain happiness. I’m grateful for the food on the table,...
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On letting go
It’s been said that letting go means giving up and that’s entirely indications of weakness. But to be in the position of letting go and to settle as the one being let go of bear feelings that are on a whole different spectrum.
It’s difficult to embrace the feeling of being left behind yet sometimes we forget that it isn’t any easier for the person that’s leaving. It...
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Sometimes I don’t know what I’ll do without him and sometimes he just straight up gives me the urge to throw my phone at the wall when we’re talking. I don’t doubt him anymore when he says he sees “right through me,” because I think he actually does. It’s been a year of talking to him every.single.day :) and I’m surprised he’s not sick of me...
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” I’ve loved and I’ve lost. “
I’ve loved and I lost. I’ve loved wholeheartedly, unconditionally but maybe it’s true when they say that sometimes, love isn’t enough. Because trust, love is war — and I fought hard because I made up my mind that I was going to fight for what I loved. But my abilities reaches an extent verses the battlefield of...
Believed it ought to be always and forever but learned the hard way that always isn’t forever.
The day would come
I know. I know how it feels to wake up with a heavy heart and can only recollect blurs from the previous night. I understand how it feels to wake up from being caressed by pain and have disappointment lying alongside of you. But I promise you that things would get brighter. The day would come — when the songs won’t remind you of the memories and the pictures won’t send a feeling...
October 2011
8 posts
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On that feeling
Do you remember that feeling? The butterflies, the tingles. The race of your pulse synchronizing in tempo with your heartbeat’s increasing pace. It’s the little things that brings the greatest comfort. The little things that disrupts the equilibrium in the beating of your heart and immediately elevates back up from the excitement. Phoning until the brink of dawn. Sleepy voices and...
I’m always the one waiting. For once, I want to be the one waited on.
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“Maybe you’re scared someone might actually like you, for you. Not for that dumb...”
– (via eletheowl)
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On that one person
“One Person” — who was the one that crossed your mind first? Aside from the people that had an impact in your life, I believe there’s always an individual for everyone that comes before anybody else. A person embedded in their heart deep down no matter how much time has passed.
Everyone has this one person. One person they’ll take back without a second thought no...
Don't say anything when you're in no position to...
There’s nothing more painful than anticipating progression but witnessing its fate of regression. But the scary part is how everything can be so perfect one minute and gone within a blink of an eye.
I’m sorry. I don’t have the ability to change your mind, I can’t be the one to make an impact on your life like your previous one had. I’ve gone through the same...
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self-exxpression:
It’s that thrill of the chase. You feel out of the place, though you see it in their face that they fancy you. Giving off this intentional flirtatious vibe, making it completely obvious, yet no move is made nor questions asked. Though, you see the slight chemistry on the side, what is there to hide? When there is a manifest vibe? Does it hurt to try?
You want what you can’t...
September 2011
10 posts
The only thing I'd be steady chasin' after are my...
I have yet to encounter heavy workload or maybe what I consider to be “heavy” is just a compilation of work too overwhelming to exist beyond the expectation of my illusions. Despite that, all my time and energy had been devoted to completing assignments days before the actual deadline to refrain from procrastination. Leaving the house before sunrise when it seems like a crime...
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Looking in her perspective
“I’m tired,” she said. She leaned in and heaved a heavy sigh. “I want to let go.” But why would you let go when you’ve held on for so many years? I questioned. Her normal calm, rhythmic breathing was uneven tonight and it seemed as though it almost hurt for her to breathe. I took a long look at her face before turning away. Only now had I realized how much older...
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What nourishes me destroys me.
These continuous contemplations of the “might-have-been,” “should-have-been,” and “could-have-beens,” are taking control of me. I thought reminiscing was supposedly reflections of the past that once made me so genuinely happy. Instead, I realized as I fit the pieces together, how everything had significantly altered and the genuine happiness I had once felt was...
tell the woman on the edge of the roof, that this will not feel like flying. and be there to catch her. tell the man on the bridge, hanging off the vertical suspenders, that the water will feel like fire. and be there to hold him before he jumps. tell the woman with the keys to a new apartment, that he will marry her in the spring. and be there to throw flowers at the wedding. tell the boy with...
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It is complete and utter bullshit when they say...
Whether it’s their feelings, mindset, habits or lifestyle, people can always change. It isn’t fair to somebody when you completely shut them down and give them an execution as a verdict because you choose not to believe (in) them. It is true that past behaviors are indicators of future behaviors but damn, correlation doesn’t lead to causation. Just because they’ve made...